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I am _so_ goddamn glad I have the Ativan.
For the past week or so, the alternating night that I'm not taking it, I'm up at 4-4:30a and unable to get back to sleep (melatonin helps, but it's a little late to take it when get up at 7:30 and it takes 30 minutes to kick in). I suspect it's because I tend to get up then to use the bathroom, but then my brain is too active to let me get back to sleep again (lots of stuff; worry for people I'm close to, worry about whether or not I get to have two months off to get my wrists more healed, worry about the complication that is the process of trying to get a perm visa in Australia). Probably combining with the fucked-upness with melatonin levels that goes along with seasonal affective disorder. Stupid fucked circadian rhythms. Stupid clouds.
This morning, I took anti-migraine meds because my poor sleep is starting to have me waking up with the weird type of migraine that I tend to get with insufficient sleep (among other things). This includes caffeine, so I'm more awake than I'd otherwise be, but...
Good Ativan. *pets it* (note that my brain is stressed enough lately that even on nights I take it, it can take me a bit to get to sleep. But I _stay_ asleep better and fall back asleep after bathroom stops more easily)
And the Ativan also means that I'm getting reasonable amounts of wrist healing happening on alternating nights.
For the past week or so, the alternating night that I'm not taking it, I'm up at 4-4:30a and unable to get back to sleep (melatonin helps, but it's a little late to take it when get up at 7:30 and it takes 30 minutes to kick in). I suspect it's because I tend to get up then to use the bathroom, but then my brain is too active to let me get back to sleep again (lots of stuff; worry for people I'm close to, worry about whether or not I get to have two months off to get my wrists more healed, worry about the complication that is the process of trying to get a perm visa in Australia). Probably combining with the fucked-upness with melatonin levels that goes along with seasonal affective disorder. Stupid fucked circadian rhythms. Stupid clouds.
This morning, I took anti-migraine meds because my poor sleep is starting to have me waking up with the weird type of migraine that I tend to get with insufficient sleep (among other things). This includes caffeine, so I'm more awake than I'd otherwise be, but...
Good Ativan. *pets it* (note that my brain is stressed enough lately that even on nights I take it, it can take me a bit to get to sleep. But I _stay_ asleep better and fall back asleep after bathroom stops more easily)
And the Ativan also means that I'm getting reasonable amounts of wrist healing happening on alternating nights.